Along with needing a new planner, the company also discontinued the notebooks I use for my bullet journal and work notebook. The work notebook was harder to replace — there isn’t a lot out there exactly like it — so I drove around buying up all of the stock I could find in-store. This amounted to 14 notebooks. I go through one every 1.5 – 2 years. Would I work another 21 to 28 years? Totally possible that I will retire within that window. And if I work beyond that, I could always suck it up and deal with a different kind of notebook for my final years.

The bullet journal was easier to replace — a Moleskine is a similar notebook — but the truth was that replacing it was filling me with anxiety. I didn’t want something different. I wanted my paper strength and stay.

The company was selling the final stock online, and if I ordered 18 notebooks, I would get free shipping. I could have my exact notebook and never have to switch brands. I go through a bullet journal every 1.75 years. That’s 31.5 more years of bullet journaling. And I could probably stretch them out about 2 years at this point because I’m mostly balancing just my schedule vs. also remembering everything for the kids.

It was a lot of money to invest in paper notebooks, but it was also like buying a forever stamp. Yes, it was more money now, but over time, as notebook prices increase, I will likely save money by making this one-time big purchase instead of finding (and paying for) new notebooks one at a time.

But it was also strange to think about my life in notebooks. My work life in notebooks — as I see the stack dwindle down, it’s also my work years dwindling down. My personal life in notebooks — how much longer do I have to live when I’m down to a handful of notebooks? It was a little sobering.

But at least I only have to worry about the planner now.

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Along with the goose in the bottle, another mind-shifting thought is to take a step back whenever you’re upset and ask yourself, “Does this really matter?”

Some things matter. But we’re conditioned to react as if everything matters. And when you can take a step back and say, “Wait, does it really matter if I do X or get Y or feel Z?” you sometimes find that the answer is actually no. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t change your world in any way beyond a tiny, temporary blip.

It was an interesting thought exercise when I felt myself panicking last week to ask myself: “Does this really matter?”

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Our favourite Thai restaurant closed two weeks ago. We tried another one, and it was fine, though we’ll keep looking because it was like eating B- vegetarian Pad Thai after several decades of A+ vegetarian Pad Thai. It’s hard to be happy with B- Pad Thai when you know an A+ version existed.

Of course, Poppin stopped production on the planner, and TIGI stopped making my hair gel (though they replaced it with a product that feels identical). The last straw was the guinea pig’s Vitamin C is no longer sold.

I like sameness. I know some people like change and always want the best new product, but if I find something that works, I never want to update it. I just want the same thing again and again. Sometimes, I feel like the world is designed for people who like to go broad vs. people who like to go deep.

We just finished four seasons of Breeders, a show that I probably would have avoided if I hadn’t seen a scene from it before I read what it was about because the description made it sound kid-heavy. And it’s not really about parenting (a little bit, but not completely); it is all the stuff that happens in adulthood. It’s about a couple in their late 40s/early 50s, living in London, raising two kids, and seeing their parents, and it is really, really, really funny. Laugh aloud funny. And it gets pretty dark sometimes, too.

It was a bummer to get to the last episode, but ChickieNob and I have decided to rewatch from the beginning to spend time with our fictional London friends.

That’s my recommendation of the week. First episode is a little wobbly. Gets much better from the second episode and on.

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Stop procrastinating. Go make your backups. Don’t have regrets.

Seriously. Stop what you’re doing for a moment. It will take you fifteen minutes, tops. But you will have peace of mind for days and days. It’s the gift to yourself that keeps on giving.

As always, add any new thoughts to the Friday Backup post and peruse new comments to find out about methods, plug-ins, and devices that help you quickly back up your data and accounts.

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And now the blogs…

But first, second, helpings of the posts that appeared in the open comment thread last week. To read the description before clicking over, please return to the open thread:

• “Parenting Ourselves” (No Kidding in NZ)

Okay, now my choices this week.

Grumpy Rumblings has a post about dyeing their hair, which I think about a lot. (My hair, not their hair.) What they did feels like something I could do. I know I wouldn’t have the patience to sit in the salon for hours, and I wouldn’t go back every few months, but if I could do it at home, I could see myself trying this. Plus, I loved reading all of the comments and seeing what other people did about dyeing.

Lastly, No Kidding in NZ has a post about the book, The Otherhood (such a great name), and an interview about it. But I love this point: “Because whether we wanted children or not, whether it was a deliberate choice or not, we are all affected by pronatalism, by judgement, and by condescension.” No one is immune, regardless of your situation.

The roundup to the Roundup: Loved the show, Breeders. Your weekly backup nudge. And lots of great posts to read. So what did you find this week? Please use a permalink to the blog post (written between July 5 – 12) and not the blog’s main URL. Not understanding why I’m asking you what you found this week. Read the original open thread post here.

I’ve passed the recommended age threshold, so I made an appointment to get my first colonoscopy, and I’m dreading it. People tell me that it’s not as bad as I fear, but what I fear is not what other people seem to fear. I’m not looking forward to the prep, but I’m not scared of the prep. I’m scared of being under anesthesia.

I am scared of all anesthesia — I didn’t want an epidural, I don’t get novocaine at dental appointments, and I once stayed awake for oral surgery. There’s nothing I can do to make that part easier. I don’t want to be in pain, but I also don’t want to be asleep. Or partly asleep. I just want to be on the other side of this and not need to repeat it for ten years.

Dreading it and will be happy when it’s over. Though accepting all advice for things to ask for or do to make this process easier.